@MrsMorrisey
Have a bit of a vent - we all hope to act like reasonable rational people and sometimes you just don’t want to do that any more! There’s no problem in letting it out of your system, reasonable and rational can wait till tomorrow. Your team are doing their best, as @arpie says this situation is not uncommon. Keep all the other thoughts till your next discussion. Although remembering how angry you feel at not getting rid of the cancer in one shot may help you consider what treatment you are willing to do to achieve that end. Best wishes.