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Hi Jo,

I didn't think I'd go back on this website as I was finding some of the entries too emotional for me.  Alas, the Lord has decided otherwise, that I need to talk to people like you. SO thanks for your message. 

I had a friend express her sadness for me on Monday morning, and then promptly tell me that I should have told her.  She said, "I thought we were friends.  Don't friends share their burdens?"  So bloody self-centred!  I suppose I'm pretty self-centred myself at the moment!!!

I'm waiting today for my pathology results.  It's lunchtime and still no call from my surgeon.  Everytime the phone rings, my heart misses a beat.  I'm trying to be positive but sometimes I don't even know what that means or how to do it.  If I'm too positive, I'll have further to fall!

So, no idea of treatment yet ... hopefully only radiotherapy.  Gosh, this seems like such a bad dream.  To be talking about cancer treatments .... talking about ME having cancer treatments.  That was my sister's journey, and my dad's.  It was never going to be mine.  Alas, here I am.  My mum reckons she's got the worse end of the stick to me bec. she's my mum!  I decided better off not to respond to that one!

Jo, where are you from? I'm in Melbourne.  And what stage of the journey are you?

Nea.