Scared worried and confused

I think it depends a lot on how many nodes are removed and how the surgeon gets to them. I had 20 removed 9 were affected. Then whether or not you have radiation. Radio can make the effects on the nerves etc worse. Almost one year now since my surgery,  and underarm area still a bit numb but that's OK, however constantly painful when stretching or using the arm eg for gardening. But I do it anyway of course and put up with the discomfort though gets bad at night and I take a painkiller like Advil to get back to sleep. It may be radiation fibrosis, nobody is sure. But it's tolerable. You may have  no problems, don't worry about it, just focus on being kind to yourself and helping your body heal, the sense of  confusion and loss of control is the worst thing, you just have to go along with it and try to stay in the moment. It will get better!