Scared worried and confused

@leilani Nearly 10 months on and I'm back tending to the garden.  The beds are now starting to look like they need weeding rather than mowing.  I'm also the organiser and sorter outer around here.  I just can't do it now and honestly, I don't think I ever will to that extent again.  So many of the women who are on this forum have described themselves as organisers - I don't know whether we are the people who "stick" to this site or if there are an inordinate amount of us diagnosed with breast cancer.  No scientific evidence, but I honestly think that stress had a great deal to play in my bc.  The first thing to do is realise that the world will truck on without you sorting it out and if the mess around you is too unbearable, give instructions and disappear to another room where you can't see it.  Do what you can, when you can.  You will need your energy to deal with other things.