I wasn't really in shock about the cancer diagnosis either, but my main concern was how was I going to keep my roof over my head as I am also on my own. Also the mechanics of getting to appointments and chemo on my own was what really overwhelmed me. I had friends step forward to drive me to chemo and back, so that was a blessing. I took leave from work, as I was not going to try to work shift hours and get to appointments, and the nature of my work was that my shifts needed to be covered ahead of time, so I took leave.
I embraced many changes in my life which included taking out time for "me" and taking up old hobbies and going on leave from work, and never ended up returning. When we hear the old saying "why me", I actually said "why not me". Of course nobody wants cancer, but I have family history and my grandmother passed from breast cancer the year I was born.
micaela, I was also 61 when diagnosed and ER positive and HER2 positive and in lymph nodes, so I also got the "works", surgery, chemo, herceptin, radiation therapy and hormone therapy (still on it, but having a break from it), and now 5 years on from diagnosis. My cancer diagnosis forced me to slow down!
Take care, you sound like you are doing well, and accepting the diagnosis, and I truly believe that is over half of the battle. Perhaps us who get diagnosed later in life (over 60 years), can accept it a bit better.....idk.. thoughts anyone ??????