Thank you for your comments everyone. It's so nice to 'meet' you all. I don't have a carer/partner of anyone around to help or talk to about any my BC. I sometimes would like to debrief with someone but I've been on my own for 35 of my 61 years, brought up my son on my own, so just get on with things. Perhaps that's why I felt no shock. I had already had a few emergency surgeries - two to save my eye sight (7 years ago and one month before my BC diagnosis). I feel that if the body is broken, fix it. I feel that about having BC but I know it's a pretty trite attitude to have about cancer. I was bouncing around happily straight after my surgeries and my family thought I wasn't taking it seriously.
Zoffiel, I can imagine it would have been hard for you living outside a major centre as well as being a singe mum. Good on you for getting through it and not selling your house.
Like you Afraser, having BC has made me think about my mortality and the time I may have left, be it 2 or 20 years. I don't want to waste any more time not living the way I want. I have put off how and where I want to live for others' needs and a little about how I would generate income. I live in the city which I really detest and have wanted to move to regional NSW, as well as work less. My journey this year has actually given me new strength and the courage to finally do these things and live for my physical and psychological health/happiness. My BC is positive as it the catalyst for me to change my life. I had procrastinated about living where and how I want for many years, out of fear I think, but strangely, I feel that having cancer has given me the courage to move on from a life I have not wanted for 15 years.