@Nads So sorry to hear of your news, and right on Christmas is tough on many levels, everything being shut or on hold adding to the panic and anxiety. I think youre doing the best thing, in that you are taking a step back and a deep breath and so importantly is One Step At A Time. Things are incredibly overwhelming at the point you are and we all know how hard it is. Its hard right now as until you have your surgery you won't have your pathology, and once you have that you will know exactly what you have and what your treatment will be. I think knowing is half the battle and helps you deal with each step. Hang in there. Hugs Melinda xo