Ostrich
Hi
Whirlwind doesn't begin to cover it. No family history, first mammogram which I seriously considered not having done and within a month I've had lumpectomy and sentinel nodes taken, bone density, full body scan, both good and now waiting to see if my ovaries need to 'go'.
I want to be an ostrich and pretend this isn't happening? Pain post op is a huge surprise. nearly four weeks on and I'm still angry with my body for failing me. I'm tired and so sore, but trying to act as if nothing is wrong. Went back to work full-time less than a week after the op because this thing will not dictate my life. I may have to rethink that.
I've got my planning appointment in early Jan and will start radiotherapy on Jan 30.
Convinced I am not sick, no temp and not vomiting so finding this hard to come to terms with.
Honestly, I've even considered foregoing the radiotherapy because if they've cut it out, then it's gone, right? if I feel like this after the op what will I feel like after radiotherapy. Stupid, I know, my girls and hubby would not let that one slide.
I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I know the prognosis is excellent, no chemo needed but meds for the next 5 years. I just want to close my eyes and wake in 2018.
No need to reply or comment, this ostrich just needed to vent. Can't do that at home, not this honestly.
Whirlwind doesn't begin to cover it. No family history, first mammogram which I seriously considered not having done and within a month I've had lumpectomy and sentinel nodes taken, bone density, full body scan, both good and now waiting to see if my ovaries need to 'go'.
I want to be an ostrich and pretend this isn't happening? Pain post op is a huge surprise. nearly four weeks on and I'm still angry with my body for failing me. I'm tired and so sore, but trying to act as if nothing is wrong. Went back to work full-time less than a week after the op because this thing will not dictate my life. I may have to rethink that.
I've got my planning appointment in early Jan and will start radiotherapy on Jan 30.
Convinced I am not sick, no temp and not vomiting so finding this hard to come to terms with.
Honestly, I've even considered foregoing the radiotherapy because if they've cut it out, then it's gone, right? if I feel like this after the op what will I feel like after radiotherapy. Stupid, I know, my girls and hubby would not let that one slide.
I don't want to talk to anyone about it. I know the prognosis is excellent, no chemo needed but meds for the next 5 years. I just want to close my eyes and wake in 2018.
No need to reply or comment, this ostrich just needed to vent. Can't do that at home, not this honestly.
