@em_24, deciding to do the chemo was one of the hardest decisions I've had to make. I was faced with 2 options - don't do the chemo and accept the risk that the cancer had spread beyond the one lymph node and potentially into my bones or do the chemo and accept the risk of serious side effects like leukaemia. Both decisions come with major risks and I still wonder if I've made the right decision. I think what made me decide to do the chemo was that I'm still so young and have so much life to live and if my cancer has spread then hopefully the chemo will kill it and if I didn't do the chemo and my cancer returned elsewhere in my body, I would always be saying I wish I'd done the chemo! Aaaah! such hard decisions to make at such a young age. At 24, you should be loving life and having fun, not dealing with this awful stuff!