Hi Kezzababe, welcome to this site. Sorry to hear your plight. We have all been there and done that, so hopefully we can give you lots of support and advice. I am 15 months since diagnosis, and now am coming out the other end. I have had 5 surgeries, ( that is a lumpectomy, mastectomy, another mastectomy, insertion of tissue expanders, and finally insertion of 2 permanent silicone implants only about 5 weeks ago.). I have also had 4 cycles of chemo, lost my hair, regrown my hair, and feel really good now. Still on mediaction for several more years, ( femara), but otherwise doing well. I'm sure you can't see a light at the end of the tunnel yet, but believe me, it is there, and you will get there sooner than you think. Please feel free to come on here and rant and rave or cry or whinge. We are here to support each other. All the best with your surgery next week. Love Chris xxx