Thinking of you as you go thru all this, @Sweetpetal - big hugs coming your way xx
I think the wheels fall off for most at least once thru active treatment ..... sometimes more often - all totally normal. I was a bawling mess during my rads as my husband fell off his bike & broke a rib - so I was looking after him with 4hrly meds as well as doing the rads (and also lost a valued piece of jewellery when the chain broke) ... As with @kezmusc - I was spirited away to a separate room with door closed, with social worker to 'recompose myself' ..... most of the health professionals you will deal with will be lovely. Just the occasional arsehole pops up, as @kmakm found! :(
All the best for your ongoing treatment xx