Not sure how to react, what to expect...
Hi Everyone.
My name is Laura. I am 34 years old and about 6 weeks ago I found a small lump in my left breast, after ultrasound and biopsy it turns out it was breast cancer. I had two surgeries to get clear margins and lymphnodes were taken out but clear. I will start radiotherapy soon (hopefully the genetic testing is negative) and I am due for a course of anti hormonal therapy for at least five years, one injection a month and tablets everyday.
I left my husband months ago as I was in an abusive relationship, at the time I thought if I still had a chance to have kids I wanted to have them with the right partner. Fast forward to a few months later and I find myself with the oncologist telling me that I can either choose to have my ovaries removed or if I still want to have children then do the anti hormonal therapy for minimum 2-3 years then stop it just to get pregnant with a risk of the cancer recurring while I am off the tablets...
I feel cheated, worried, uncertain about the future at times, especially when I discuss the situation deeply with somebody, I look at pregnant women or small babies and I can't help but feel emotional within a few seconds believing that I will never experience that. At the same time I feel guilty because I know people who have been diagnosed with cancer, are going through tougher therapies or don't have long to live so I think I don't have the right to feel upset or complain...I try not to think about it but I am not sure if I am actually pushing it all away hoping it is not true...
My name is Laura. I am 34 years old and about 6 weeks ago I found a small lump in my left breast, after ultrasound and biopsy it turns out it was breast cancer. I had two surgeries to get clear margins and lymphnodes were taken out but clear. I will start radiotherapy soon (hopefully the genetic testing is negative) and I am due for a course of anti hormonal therapy for at least five years, one injection a month and tablets everyday.
I left my husband months ago as I was in an abusive relationship, at the time I thought if I still had a chance to have kids I wanted to have them with the right partner. Fast forward to a few months later and I find myself with the oncologist telling me that I can either choose to have my ovaries removed or if I still want to have children then do the anti hormonal therapy for minimum 2-3 years then stop it just to get pregnant with a risk of the cancer recurring while I am off the tablets...
I feel cheated, worried, uncertain about the future at times, especially when I discuss the situation deeply with somebody, I look at pregnant women or small babies and I can't help but feel emotional within a few seconds believing that I will never experience that. At the same time I feel guilty because I know people who have been diagnosed with cancer, are going through tougher therapies or don't have long to live so I think I don't have the right to feel upset or complain...I try not to think about it but I am not sure if I am actually pushing it all away hoping it is not true...
