I've retyped this post so many times I wasn't sure what to say. I got my results today and I feel numb. I've been quite calm, not many tears, but I know it hasn't hit me yet. At this stage, it's early...
Not what you wanted but now you know what you are dealing with. Recovery can be quite quick, and I certainly had very little discomfort. Once that's done and the pathology is clearer you can focus on the next step. Feel free to ask anything about what to expect, what to take etc. Lots of people here with immensely practical experience. We'll be thinking of you.