Wow, you have more calmness than I had ! Willow.. I like that bendable, adaptable.. you will need to be adaptable for sure. Chicken.. is ok too. It is normal under the circumst ances! I went into total shock.. Panic anxiety, maybe denial too in some ways.I also tried to find info.. to allay my anxiety, and what was best decision for me. My surgeon.. really told me.. we will do a lumpectomy, axillary node clearance, then chemotherapy.. 6 months, and radiation 6 weeks. I am thinking in my head....." OMG.. this cannot be happening. "
Take someone with you, as the shock will set in..at some point.
I was 42. Maybe a lumpectomy and breast conserving treatment is best for you, or a mastectomy...
It is good to have faith in the medical team.. I agree and to get as much info as possible, to feel like you' re doing the best for you. I was oestrogen receptor negative, progesterone receptor negative, but I am not sure if I was HER 2 positive.. I might have been .I have lost my path report.
I had 11 lymph nodes out and one had cancer.. I was grade 2 early breast cancer and tumour size was 2 to 3 cm I think. I too felt a lump/ sore spot, on the top of my right breast.
I did not have to take tamoxifen afterwards, but did go into early menopuase at 42. I am now 57.. I have slowed down somewhat, and still think of BC every day, but it can fade into the background somewhat in time. I did a bit much with my arm..too early.. so take it sowly, gently, carefully for 6 to 12 months afterwards, at least.. Listen to how you feel and go with it.. Ask for help if you need to, which you will..at some point.
For now, I wish you all the best. The treatments are more targeted, than when I went through. Hit it hard.. cross your fingers, trust in your team, but also listen to your own body and thoughts.... Breathe...in... breathe outtttttttttttttttt. :D
Kathy.