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hey everyone, I have never chatted online and have never had breast cancer before. I had a mastectomy nov 21st the day after my birthday. I',m 46 with a 4year old son starting school next year.  I'm  a teacher and busied myself right until 3 days before finishing reports to take my mind off everything. Then I had three days of feeling so totally unprepared for what was about to happen. I haven't had a reconstruction, I'm pretty flat chested and my breasts have never really formed part of my identity. I thought the same about the loss of my hair which will happen when I start chemo in January. But I worry about the reaction of parents in front of my son (yes he's going to the school I teach at) and other children saying negative things to him. Already I've noticed changes in his behaviour since the op. He's become defiant and worry what the chemo will bring behaviour wise as well.

Guess I'm having a bad day today, a few tears.