Newbie

Thanks Tracey.  Ahhhh... the survival thing, it is by far the most (if not only) driving emotion I have.  I don't understand why people around me don't get it.  They all seem to be in more of a state of shock and grief than me (if that makes sense?) - but I just keep telling them, I knew this was a possibility for me.  I'm not going to wake up tomorrow with a different prognosis - I'm no superwoman, but I have to keep moving.  They keep waiting for me to break down.  I probably will sooner or later - but I know myself, and it will be the day that this marathon has been run and won by me.

It makes me sound harsh or something when I try to express myself, but I am a realist, always have been!  This cancer is what it is.  I don't want tears and sorrow - I want determination and belief. 

You are so right about the progress though.  I was in primary school when my mum had her masectomy - I remember it vividly.  Everything is so different now - mum even said that a few years ago when she had her reconstruction. 

So you've been 6 years since your treatment?  I'm not sure what the protocol is, but is it OK for me to ask these questions?  Don't feel bad if you don't want to answer!!  :-)   How long have you had the portacath?  I am interested to learn more about it - where abouts is it placed?  How practical is it in day to day life i.e. will it be a hassle with a very energetic and affectionate 3 year old?  I feel like such a novice!  Oh well, that apparently will change very soon.

Again, thanks Tracey, it is so good to be able to chat,

Take Care xx