@LisaJHM We all understand your frustration and anger. As @AllyJay said, this will become your safe place.
Few things are worse than uncertainty and waiting - for results, for appointments, etc. Unfortunately you'll face a lot of that. And this time of year is worse than other times because of the "festive" days off getting in the way. I was diagnosed 30 Nov last year so suffered the festive interruptions.
Friends and family are well-meaning but unless they've been where you are, they don't really appreciate what you're going through. But in any case - let them love you and help you - especially if they can deliver prepared meals! Make your own choices about your priorities.
Think about what gives you most pleasure in life, that you might be able to use as a distraction on difficult days.
Once you've started chemo, you're likely to develop a predictable pattern of how you respond after each treatment. Work around that pattern. to make the most of good days. Don't ever hesitate to call the oncology nurse with questions in between treatments. Be kind to yourself.
Hugs, Fran
