New member to the B.C Club

I know exactly how you're feeling @Anne65.  I was diagnosed about 10 days ago and have surgery on Thursday.  I still don't know which side is up.  I've at least met the surgeon a couple of times.  I'm also have the breast conserving surgery on the advice of the surgeon but with the proviso that I am willing to go in again for a second op the following week if he's not happy that there's clear margins.  I like to know where I'm going and when and feel completely out of control.  All of the advice I've taken from this network has helped me to try to contain my thinking (when I can) and I'm trying to not look past the surgery at this stage.  I do have bad moments though - at my daughter's primary school graduation the other night and wondering if I'll see her high school one.  I could just scream at everything!  I digress... good luck with your surgery and I hope that your Christmas is a good one.