Hello @Cath62
Thank you for the warm welcome and response. It does indeed take time to process and I appreciate the support. You are right it can be lonely. I do have support but sometimes it is easier with people that have been or are going through it and not just well meaning family and friends.
I appreciate you checking, I have seen a psychologist and have found that useful previously so will continue to use that when I feel I need it.
I am looking into what will help me get through. I do enjoy being out in nature so I'll need to figure out ways to get out and about again.