New Diagnosis

Thank you ladies, it is really helping to read your comments. I have always had an over active mind and in the past, when I had ante natal depression, it was one of my worst enemies. At this time I could not stop thinking about dying, so you think I would have learnt my lesson!! Just because I think it doesn't make it true!

The bit Im hating at the moment. apart from the unknown, is the impact it is having on my family. My daughter has spent her first night away from home of her own volition. She has always been to afraid to sleep over at friends and I feel that is because she doesn't want to see me worry. 

How do you pull those big girl panties up and move forward? What a challenge!!

One part of me can't wait to see the surgeon to get some more information, but one part of me is petrified to hear more bad news. I'm not looking forward to all the scans and things....assuming that's what they do to check it hasn't spread. 

Thanks for all the love ladies.xxxxx