Lol Mandy,I understand exactly where you are coming from.Being a nurse makes it worse I think.My son is a nurse,and in the beginning he would read something into everything!!!Mandy,I had myself dead and buried before I even saw the surgeon,!!I I had a swollen lymph node that I convinced myself was the cancer spreading(and it wasn't)and it was actually my daughter who sat me down one day and helped me to calm myself down,and take things one step at a time,when I had some actual answers, and not imaginary ones!You will get through this Mandy.Its not long until Tuesday:)