Sorry to see you join our select little group @Booklover - and wishing you all the best for tomorrow. I am a real sook & I was in tears, leaving my husband and brother & SIL at reception on the morning of my surgery - but once I was in my room, I was pretty well FINE! It is all that 'fear of the unknown' .... the 'what ifs' ..... all I know is, that once I woke up in recovery & was back in my room, I was just SO RELIEVED, knowing that the beast was gone! I hope you'll feel the same xx. This damn disease mucks with your brain even more than your body, I reckon xx. So, as the other ladies have said - just let the tears flow
Just make sure that after you get home, that you don't do any lifting/housework/anything that may cause a setback - I hope your support team is all organised to wait on you, hand & foot for a week or two, at least. xx
Below is a thread that has some tips on being in hospital - front opening tops are good .... a small oblong pillow to support your arm (and hug when driving home, as any jarring on the road can also be a tad painful once the meds have worn off.) It shows other areas of the forum where you can have a bit of fun too - even a laugh or two (heaven knows we can all do with a laugh!)
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/23477/a-big-welcome-to-all-our-new-members#latesttake care & al the best xx