need to connect

To all my dear friends on this forum. I just got the news that the surgeon got all of my cancer - margins clear and nodes all clear too. I am so happy but so emotional - can't stop crying!! It's the first good cry I have had but it's still a win and I am glad to take it. I know the journey has only just started but I'm more determined than ever now. Thank you to all of you who have so graciously and kindly helped me so far. This is a fabulous network of women who understand and resources that are simply amazing. I have always found it difficult to communicate my feelings in person - afraid of being seen as weak and being judged. It's something I know I'm going to have work on. But here in this space I feel so much freer because each of you have the inside scoop on this and the challenges it presents us with. I don't want people around me to think that I am asking for pity or sympathy (which is why I don't ask for help easily) and I don't want to be seen as a :whinger". But truth be told I need help and sympathy and compassion and understanding - all of it from those closest to me. So I'm working on letting people in. In the meantime I have you wonderful people here on this platform who already understand, sympathise and help ... so so much, and I am so grateful. Onward and upwards ladies. We've got this!!!