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Thank you for expressing your feelings and questions so well- they are all relatable to me! I found the shock of diagnosis to be extremely shocking!! I am crying randomly ( I am not normally a crier) And I am finding my my thoughts and emotions are currently hardest to deal with. I have also found support with some special friends. Work is very tricky for me, I love my job managing a facility caring for young people (my kids are grown up) So struggling with what this will look like through chemo and whether to divulge my diagnosis or not….
I am hoping I can continue working on reduced hours…. Time will tell. 

I am currently working on taking back some control as I prepare myself as best I can to start Chemo. I have a great medical team, amazing surgeon, oncologist and breast nurse- hope you are comfortable with your team. 

I remember how all thoughts in my head were cancer related initially and something I found helpful in my early days was to go the cinema- and watch a movie.  I found this was distracting and provided a break from the negative thoughts. 

A huge thank you to all who have responded, your responses are really informative and valuable to others. 
Sorry this post is all a bit random and erratic, pretty much how my thoughts are currently, but it is helpful to express so thanks for the opportunity. 
  @Dessi I am thinking of you and your family, go gently and take care 🥰