@Me2 thing Ive come to learn is, expect the unexpected. You would be numb right now and rightfully so, its overwhelming and its frightening where you are, with no answers and no direction. So bring on March 7 to begin only then will things feel like they are moving and you are closer to knowing what you have and what treatment is required. Its normal to be all over the place and you have others to worry about.
Definitely keep talking here, between us all we have a wealth of knowledge and experience and above all else endless support and hugs! You are not alone even when it feels you are we get it. So all I can say is where you are right now is super tough....so distract and occupy as best you can as its out of your hands. I found doing little things for myself alone that helped me feel centred and peaceful somehow amongst the chaos worked. As simple as sipping my green tea in the sunshine on a mild day or a walk in nature, whatever that thing is that brings this feeling of peace in that moment where you just BE and not focus on anything outside of that moment.
Big Hugs, Alice is right, talking to someone can help at some point too and you do get 6 free consults under a Mental Health Plan..I always found my Breast Care Nurse was wonderful and there to listen I only ever rang twice but oh boy was a meltdown! LOL Theres certainly plenty of support. So deep breath! Melinda xo