Mickey

Hi Mickey,

You and Shirl stayed up later than me last night.  My first thoughts when I read the blog this morning were of sadness for you.  Then I read Shirl's comment and she is exactly right.  YOU take control here. I was also betrayed 24 years ago when my husband brought a woman into our home.  He had whittled me down to the size of a pea but boy did I find strength to fight the bastard.  I had two little girls to fight for as well.  It still hurts to this day to think back on those horrible times but I survived and did it very well.  I always try to see the positive in any negative.  That way it makes YOU in control.  The other thought I had was, if you aren't already onto it, is to seek some professional help for yourself.  Please before you sink into a hole - depression.  Are you in any support groups?  You may have already read on the site and from talking to others that depression is a "normal" part of the journey.  It is not a good side effect but there are always remedies.  I don't want to dwell on it but please keep it in mind - while you are thinking straight it is easier to make decisions.  I send you all my strength to stay and grow stronger to be able to do whatever you need to do.  YOU have beaten cancer YOU can do anything.  I am so pleased you opened up and put your situation on "paper" it really does help.  When I was going through my dramas all those years ago, I never stopped talking.  I was living with my sister at the time as we had been thrown out on the street and years later she told me that she was "there" but never heard a word I said - after about the 100th time.  So a "listening board" is good for the soul and a good healing source.  Just had a good suggestion for you.  Go out and do something you love doing or haven't ever been game to do.  Feel liberated.  I used to sing at the top of my voice - my poor parents just looked on and were there to support me. (money was too short to indulge myself in massages but I do now) Next time you log on I want to know what it is you are going to do !!!!!!  Will we see headlines???Stay in touch as Shirl says we need to know that you are doing okay.XLeonie