@Annabelle a big Welcome to you firstly and being terrified is something we can all identify with, together with anxious, angry and downright upset! I think from my experience these past 6yrs, its going from absolutely fine to a whirlwind of scans, surgery, diagnosis then treatment and it all happens like lightening before you have a chance to think! I was 43 my first diagnosis and but at 49 and recurrence at 47 am recovering from a single mastectomy/diep flap recon. Very different to what you are undergoing. There are lots of ladies however been through where you are and what you are about to undergo. Ive done radio, chemo multiple surgeries and I can say it is frightening but what got me through it all is looking at one thing at a time, when we try to look at the big picture we can't make sense of it and we freak!! But know this...you absolutely will get through each step, just as you have Chemo. So hang in tight, and please come and keep us updated and share, we are all here to help support in anyway we can. Big hugs Melinda xo