I was diagnosed 15/4/20. I had a Mastectomy on my right breast 30/4/20. The cancer was 10.4 cm & the 6 node soldiers have returned all cancerous. Tomorrow I go back into hospital to have the rest of the nodes army removed. I’ll get the results next Wednesday. I start Chemo in 4 weeks. The reality of it all is hitting home & my strength feels stretched. I’m sending my love & hugs to everyone out there in online world, I can do this, you can do this, we can do this.xoxo

@Universal it's surprising how much 'help' we don't need. I'm like an old dog when I'm sick--I just want to crawl under the bed and bite anyone who comes near me.You've had some good advice so far. Unfortunately, there is nothing like a crisis to make folk revert to factory settings. I had to tell my mother to go home after my first diagnosis. I was OK while in was in hospital, but by the time I got home --where the really good drugs were not available---i simply couldn't stand anyone even talking to me, let alone 'helping' . She was offended, but at least she was in one piece, which she wouldn't have been if she woke me up to ask me how I was feeling more time.Realistically, you are not going to starve and the house work can wait. You just need peace and time to adjust at your own speed. Not that we have a great deal of choice about the pace of life when we find ourselves on the BC train. But grab what you can.Maybe try telling her you've had some advice you may need more support in a couple of months and you'd like her to come back then. Then keep putting her off until you feel strong enough to cope. MXX

Hi Jodiek, I’m fortunate to have a large support group & my dog who just makes me feel so peaceful. I hope you’re feeling up to going home soon, your going to love bonding with your dogs. They make everything better.

It’s really hard, but you are not ungrateful and don’t need to castigate yourself. I do believe that, given half a chance and a lot of luck, the experience of going through cancer can make positive changes. No, cancer is never a good thing and I am not some Pollyanna, but the determination to get through and get a life again can help us decide what stuff we want to carry with us and what we don’t. Take things step by step, gently, one day at a time but just keep your own thinking clear about what you need and want. You’ll get there.

Hi @jodiek, I totally GET you! I am 59 and still feel anxious and uncomfortable with my mum (and dad and sister), so feel you deserve a medal having your parents stay with you during this emotionally challenging time, as well as managing the natural anxiety and fear. As @Afraser says, you need all your energy for you, not someone else (even if it is your mum.) I don't envy you needing to address this, perhaps you can cook up a story that you need to be be by yourself and maybe the payoff is you email/text/call at a time frame time that suits you. I understand family and friends only mean well, but sometimes we are sucked dry making sure they are ok, which is ironic at best.Hi @Universal - sending you my very best thoughts and wishes, and know we are here for you! I just love dogs but live in an apartment. I look forward to maybe when I retire getting a dog, they are so much more loving than a cat! I love our Sadie (rescue cat), but it's all on her terms. Give your dog a hug from me too!Wishing you both all the best every day!xx

Hi Universal,You are going through all the normal thoughts and feelings, yes it can be very draining.Look at it as just another speed hump in this journey. One thing I had learnt about my diagnosis , treatment, and healing, I can’t control what is happening, but I can control how I respond and deal with it.Try and roll with the waves, some are smaller than others.Your mind is a very powerful thing, stay positive.I found meditation and mindfulness very helpful during times of need.Be around positive people, do things that make you happy, listen to music that makes you want to dance or sing.Taking deep breaths and holding for 5, then release slowly for 5, and repeat a few times, take one day at a time. Be kind to yourself.You have got this.You can do this.You are a warrior. All the best for tomorrow. Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way.Take care xx

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Mira
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6 years ago
Good luck tomorrow and for your results next Wednesday @Universal You can do this. I'm sending you all my good wishes and thoughts that it goes well for you :smile:
Universal
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6 years ago
Hi Jodiek, I’m fortunate to have a large support group & my dog who just makes me feel so peaceful. I hope you’re feeling up to going home soon, your going to love bonding with your dogs. They make everything better.
jodiek
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6 years ago
Hi... I’m sorry to hear about your diagnosis. It’s overwhelming isn’t it? I was diagnosed 9/4/20 and had a mastectomy of the right breast only yesterday so results on nodes still to come. Surprisingly I’ve been coping well so far... I live on my own with my 2 dogs and I seem to be stronger when it’s just me & them. My parents, who are in there late 70’s have come to “help” and all my mother does is cry. She is exhausting and is making things worse. All I want to do is go home to my dogs, be on my own for a few days & get my head around this. Unfortunately I now don’t feel comfortable going home so I’m spending an extra night in hospital.
Do you have good support people around you?

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