Hi Molly,
smell the back of their necks.
it's like a stabilising drug.
Sorry to meet you here.
i can tell you're tough but it's important to just drop everything and cry in the shower for an hour too.
You will get through this with one step at a time and lots of support and wisdom from women on here.
Take the time to sit, and breathe and think slowly and carefully and write down all the questions you have for when you see your specialist.
This has a centreing effect and it will serve you well to get it all out on paper..
good luck with you appointment and hugs from us all.
Let us know how you go and lean on the wonderful, wise women on here.
A. xx