Your reply is extremely intuitive. You're SOOOO right Tonya! I am trying for "perfection" instead of being "normal"....silly isn't it. I think I have a little more anxiety about this than normal because the last 12 months work history prior to getting this job was terrible (for the first time EVER in my life)....First I was retrenched from a highly responsible job, then I tried 2 other jobs doing more simplier work but got sacked each time - and upon reflection we now know that at the time unknown to me or hubby I was actually very ill - the cancer was there gripping my body and I couldn't concentrate, made stupid mistakes and couldn't keep up! No bloody wonder!
You know what - I had forgotten this was all new...I think I am being too hard on myself. After all I have to say quite honestly work has been fantastic, in keeping the job open and allowing me to return slowly...but still there are times I feel like a failure - but actually when I think it through logically, I think this is all about my anxiety about losing a job again.
I'll try to be a little less hard on myself (I have always had that problem) and coast along and just do what I can.
I so appreciate your reply....thanks sweetie.
Hope all is good with you.
Luv H