Hi Rita, waiting is the worst your brain goes into overdrive and you think the worst things, it's only natural it's a whole new thing, but grab it by the throat somehow bc brings out our strength , as Marion said be strong, but it's ok to cry, l had many a cries in the ensuite. Try and keep busy a lot of ladies go crazy and start cleaning, this seems a common thing! I hope we can be here for you . Regards adean