@Felicia29 Sending you so much love & prayers as I reckon you need it. You will not find a wiser, stronger women here than @kmakm. She has been through it all & has helped so many of us. Her words are so true.
Sorry you have no support at home. That must be so hard. Cancer effects the whole family & everyone deals with it differently. Hopefully you have some friends you can turn to or a support group nearby. Have you found a breast care nurse yet? She will be invaluable as an ear to listen to you & she will also answer all your medical questions. My nurse used to ring me & we would speak for as long as it took sometimes nearly an hour. They will counsel & support you as we will do here also.
The most important thing is to look after number 1 & that is you. Cry, drink chai tea, go for a slow walk in the sunshine, mediatation/pilates/yoga.....whatever it takes to put you in a happy place. The roller coaster can be quite a long ride.Tears are normal & natural & we all have to go through that stage & deal with the fact that we have had cancer & come to terms with accepting that. Acceptance of "the new you" is hard for many of us as our bodies & minds will never be the same after dealing with this disease.
Take care & enjoy time with your son. Strength & hugs xx