Feeling Lost
Hi, I'm not sure how this network works yet so I'm hoping I can connect with some support, but really I want to let out what is inside. I therefore doubt this will make much sense. I went in for...
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Oh we all get it.
I found a lump 5 weeks after a clear mammogram. Under ultrasound they didn't say it was cancer but I noted the looks between the radiographer and the Dr and they proceeded with 5 core biopsies. Might be a burst blood vessel he said...yeah like I believed that one.
My husband kept saying just think positive ...which annoyed the crap out of me. ..before the GP appointment I said to him...it's cancer Pete. ..you need to be prepared. ..I just want to get the next step going.
I was angry with myself. Angry I was very busy in my job and hadn't persued the revisit to a genetic counsellor to see if I had the same gene from Scotland. I thought the bloody stress of my job had caused cancer...I'd finally changed jobs after a breakdown and life was looking pretty good then bam. Cancer.
Meanwhile my SIL was dying from cancer she had ignored and I attended her funeral between biopsy and result. All the while terrified it would be me in the coffin next. I had a sister who had died from bc....gene negative.
But hey. ..here I am.
I didn't have that gene anyway. .just another 1 in 8.
I had a bilateral mastectomy due to breast density which may have consealed the cancer...so we opted to remove both. My Aunt had cancer in both breasts and it was the second that got her. She did have the gene though.
It was a bloody hard 8 months...but on I go. Living with some side effects of treatment, struggling with my weight and never fully regaining my energy I had pre chemo.
But...life's pretty good. I work full time again. I'm advancing my career. And one thing I have learned from cancer is "not to sweat the small stuff" I honestly don't give a rats about trivial things now. Family, holidays and a job where I feel I can make a difference in someones week is all I need.
So lovely...yes having things in order is not silly or jinxing yourself...but I want you now to make plans for living. 90% of women live at least 5 years from diagnosis.
Dream of travel.
Plan your head gear in case of chemo.
Check out leave in case you need time off.
And...book a dental appointment for a good clean and check up. It's great preventative care pre treatment.
And remember...no question is silly. X
I found a lump 5 weeks after a clear mammogram. Under ultrasound they didn't say it was cancer but I noted the looks between the radiographer and the Dr and they proceeded with 5 core biopsies. Might be a burst blood vessel he said...yeah like I believed that one.
My husband kept saying just think positive ...which annoyed the crap out of me. ..before the GP appointment I said to him...it's cancer Pete. ..you need to be prepared. ..I just want to get the next step going.
I was angry with myself. Angry I was very busy in my job and hadn't persued the revisit to a genetic counsellor to see if I had the same gene from Scotland. I thought the bloody stress of my job had caused cancer...I'd finally changed jobs after a breakdown and life was looking pretty good then bam. Cancer.
Meanwhile my SIL was dying from cancer she had ignored and I attended her funeral between biopsy and result. All the while terrified it would be me in the coffin next. I had a sister who had died from bc....gene negative.
But hey. ..here I am.
I didn't have that gene anyway. .just another 1 in 8.
I had a bilateral mastectomy due to breast density which may have consealed the cancer...so we opted to remove both. My Aunt had cancer in both breasts and it was the second that got her. She did have the gene though.
It was a bloody hard 8 months...but on I go. Living with some side effects of treatment, struggling with my weight and never fully regaining my energy I had pre chemo.
But...life's pretty good. I work full time again. I'm advancing my career. And one thing I have learned from cancer is "not to sweat the small stuff" I honestly don't give a rats about trivial things now. Family, holidays and a job where I feel I can make a difference in someones week is all I need.
So lovely...yes having things in order is not silly or jinxing yourself...but I want you now to make plans for living. 90% of women live at least 5 years from diagnosis.
Dream of travel.
Plan your head gear in case of chemo.
Check out leave in case you need time off.
And...book a dental appointment for a good clean and check up. It's great preventative care pre treatment.
And remember...no question is silly. X