@sandramj I went private and did not regret it. My out of pocket costs were similar.I think its hard to do anything differently when diagnosed. You were not in a position to question and evaluate everything. You did the best you could. For radiotherapy I went to the public system very good did not regret that either.
I too felt guilty about the costs of treatment. Not only do we have cancer but we have to pay a huge price to get well.
The costs are what they are in some cases probably not fair. With breast cancer most ladies do not have time to breathe before everything happens.
You sound normal just frustrated at a situation you are put in that you neither wanted or asked for.
As to what did you do to deserve it well actually nothing.
It is amazing that in this point in time we have absolutely no clue as to why some people get cancer and others dont.
Weird isnt it!!!!!!