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Emotions - the adventure begins
Wow! I have a strong family history of breast cancer and other women's cancer, but I never really thought it would happen to me. It's been 16 days of shock, sadness, anger, tears and laughter. after a mammogram and ultrasound I was diagnosed with Infiltrating Lobular carcinoma on 25/12/15. Then I had to take that news and keep it inside, I had family for Christmas Day lunch. You see, my sister in laws mother had just been diagnosed with bowel cancer, so I didn't want to drag everyone down even further with my news. Christmas came and went in a blur, I had my core biopsy on New Years Eve. It was surreal to finally see it written in black and white.New Years Eve came and went. Saw the surgeon last week and because of my heart condition, pushed surgery back until he consulted with my cardio. My surgery is scheduled for Wednesday 13/1/16. Lumpectomy and sentinel lymph node biopsy I'm told is all that will happen then.Final, full results will be known 22/1/16. Until then I remain positive, angry, blown away by the disgusting, insensitive reaction of my own siblings, my sister in particular,What was i thinking by telling her she now has triple close blood relative genetics for breast cancer and to please remain vigilant?!! (thank God I have my husbands family) apprehensive and terrified all at the same time.
So I'll sail through the next few days waiting for my surgery....until then xX
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I have a magnet on the fridge that says 'Did you have a bowl of stupid for breakfast?' So much potential usage for all those dipshits who think it's contagious.
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Thankyou Ann-Marie,
I'm glad I found this as well, it explains a lot of things in easy to understand terms and also you get to read other peoples story the lows and highs, tears and triumphs and offer support to them.... I know my cancer story is only beginning, but I'll be glad to know i can come here and ask questions, or just let it out and not be judged or looked at in a funny way....
Thanks again
- Tracy xx
Just visited my GP complete biopsy report is in.... Invasive Ductal Carcinoma NST (previous thought is was lobular, as it stated lobular features) so much information to take in!.....It is oestrogen and progesterone receptive but not HER2.....so hormone therapy a definate at some stage.Now to wait for surgery and the rest of the plan.
Talk about information overload!
- Tracy Xx
That's hard words to hear, Scorpion Queen, :(
Hi Scorpionqueen,
My name is Ann-Marie and I am the Online Community Coordinator at BCNA.
Welcome to the Online Network. I am sorry that you have joined the group, however I am glad you found us. Both the members and myself are here to support you in anyway we can.
If you need anything let me know.
Ann-Marie x
Hi Christine, Yes I think people always have an answer to how they will react if it was happening to them. But you never really know until it REALLY does! I tend to be a bit of a realist, which shocks many people I know. But I am also an empath, I know it's probably not the normal thing to do, But i have already made my decisions on what will be done in the future about my cancer, should I cross that bridge. However the thought of losing my HH cup breasts is a bit daunting, they're kinda my trademark! LOL! But if they've gotta go they've gotta go...the important thing is I'LL be here to share my story. For the most part everyone has my back 100% and I'm taking that and running with it! Thanks for your support! Xx - Tracy (ScorpionQueen)
Hi Christine - from one Christine to another - I agree wholeheartedly with your comments.
To be told by your dearest friend that you need to give up everything; obviously that is what she would do and for her to knock you when you tell her that the Assistant Surgeon visited and said Christine you look so well, you don't look like the patient; I've just had a mastectomy!
Goodness I've lost a boob and been complimented and you want to knock it! Go away!
It's true, there are acquaintances and neighbours that really surprise you with their caring nature and listening ability without being judgmental and their offering of food and then there are those that you've helped through many a crisis and you expect the return favour just cut you down with their lack of ability to understand.
Each experience in life strengthens us and this journey is that as well as.
I was recently told to look up the poem, Reason, Season, Lifetime!
It is wonderful to be part of this network and read and comment occasionally as you find strength in others experiences and everything is put into perspective.
As to being boob-less, there was no choice but I now have a replacement which I wasn't fussed about but I am now happy and yes I still have niggles and aches but that is par for the course of treatment.
I am here to tell the tale that is the most important gift of all!
Take care xx
Hi! Now it is time for you.
The ring theory recommended reading by Ruth will hopefully help to put relationships into perspective.
Good luck for Wednesday
Take care
The ring theory makes perfect sense.....maybe i should keep that up my sleeve!
I haven't really cried, except when my sister said she never wanted to hear from me again....that seemed to hurt more than hearing "you have cancer" .I was really angry yesterday but my head is held high and my spirit is strong.....I WILL get through this! Xx
