KatyJoy, Welcome to the network. You must be a very special person indeed to work in palliative care (personally cannot think of anywhere harder to work!) and I'm sure you have witnessed the absolute worst, heart wrenching situations. So now is the time when you need to let others look after you when your not feeling the best. ;) Thank goodness you have been having your scans!! It does seem very surreal as you can feel absolutely fantastic and then be told you have cancer. It's pretty much a "What the ???? moment!!" Are you on three weekly chemo's? Hoping that you pick up quickly and feel better very soon. Come on and chat often and let us know how you're getting on. All the best Xx Cath