Hi Braveheart,
On top of all of the comments above can I add -
I was apprehensive on my first chemo because I should be, it's a completely natural response to worry about the unknown and we'd be a bit strange to waltz in to a medical unit to be pumped full of chemicals and be absolutely ok with that. Having said that - I now do waltz in to the Alan Walker Cancer Center feeling absolutely ok with it because the nurses are wonderful, I know what to expect and it's (hopefully) making me better. So, feel scared, feel angry, feel nervous, feel whatever you need to feel but know that you won't always feel like that.
Also - I have a PICC line rather than a port and I love it. A PICC line is like a semi permanent canula inserted into my upper arm with two lumens attached. It's a total pain to look after, it's very obvious and it took my toddler a while to get used to, but when I go to chemo and I'm sitting across from someone that has 3 bandaids up their arm from failed attempts to canulate, yet all they need to do is 'plug me in', it makes it all worth it. I'm needle phobic so it helped me to calculate that my PICC line saves me approximately 40 needle jabs for blood tests or chemo canulas. Which equates to 40 times I won't need to concentrate on not fainting. I just thought, maybe that's another way to look at your port. Yes, it's a reminder of your cancer but hopefully it will also make your sessions in chemo simpler, quicker and less painful.