Hi Viking
I am sorry you have had to join this special club but you will find lots of ladies out there to support you via the site.
You sound as if you really are alone so at all appointments make sure you say that. There are services out there to support you but you have to be adamant that you need them. Speak with the hospital social worker and he/she will put these in place. Also, be in touch with a breast care nurse (either at the hospital or via the McGrath Foundation - you can self-refer) as she will know what is available in your area. Take anything that is offered to you. You may even be able to get some assistance to and from appointments.
Listen to your specialists. They do really know what is best for you specifically. Time is your friend or enemy so go on that trail ride and enjoy it - then plan for another once your active treatment is finished. Give yourself a goal. Lots of people try the ''alternative'' medicine route but not all are here to tell their story.
Decisions re reconstruction can be made later if needs be. I, too, was small breasted so a lumpectomy was not possible - too much of the crap stuff there !
Have fun tomorrow and keep in touch via this site when you need to talk - there is always someone on-line, day or night.
Thinking of you Summer :-)
