Hi Brenda5 and Zoffiel - I still don't know how to post replies under each person's comment! Yes, it's just a one hour trail ride, I booked it for Monday. I think after surgery I just wouldn't be able to haul myself up as I'm right handed/right breast. I've been on a couple before and a late stage horse lover...was scared of them till now. Told my niece who is having her first baby in August and she was pretty logical, she's 26 and watched her mum in law go through it in her 70s. Told my sister who is very anti western medicine and she said to look at alternatives to chemo and radiation e.g. diet. Or rather, she asked if I had asked about it. I said surgeon said no alternatives. She thinks I won't survive them. She also asked if I had asked about home help. I said if I had a drain the silver chain would come. She said re chemo and radiation she is unable to support me as although we live together, dad, sis, her bf and I (and niece on and off), she is also on the DSP and suffers from fibromyalgia, which is okay some times and other times not. So she said she can't be counted on and was very firm about that. She will also be staying with my niece when she has the baby until she can cope alone. So some sibling stuff there but I pretty much expected this. I know others do it alone. One reason I didn't ask sis to surgeon appointment was didn't want him getting lectured on pitfalls of western medicine! Not up to it! Anyway, sis is making a vegaterian soup for dinner and I'm invited so will prolly be cancer free tomorrow
