I know it's hard to do Caroline, but try not to stress too much about chemo side effects. It's not like it was in the bad old days, there's no non-stop vomiting. There are drugs for most of the side effects. It's grotty but doable. Some people work through it with only the occasional day off! I found, on the advice of everyone here, that truly the best way through the cancer shitshow is to take it one day at a time. As my psychologist says, no predictive grief. As my yoga teacher says, there is only now. Lots of teachers! Big hug lovely, K xox