From @Caroline71 Hi Everyone I am new to the site, just turned 48 and only diagnosed 2 days ago with stage 3 invasive breast cancer.It has spread to my lymph nodes and the muscles in my chest and I still have to have scans to see if it has gone to other organs.I am utterly devastated as I only had a scan in December and it was clear but I developed a large lump in my breast out of nowhere I put it off for 2 months as I thought it was another cyst as I had one in the left breast which is why the scan was done in December I did not realise that breast cancers could appear that large out of nowhere and then to be told it is advanced and spread already has hit me like a ton of bricks.I have not seen the oncologist yet as I am waiting to be contacted i am absolutely terrified and depressed as well.I am worried it has spread to my liver or lungs as I have been having back pain and shortness of breath for months now,I am scared of the chemo and how sick I will be.i watched my dad die of stage 4 lung cancer last year which came out of nowhere and he only lived 5 months after diagnosis after developing sepsis as a side effect of the chemo.I am just a absolute mess and have no one I can really talk to.i have a 25 year old son and the thought of dying and leaving him has me so devastated I am feeling hopeless and depressed and like I just do not want to have to go any further sorry for such a depressing post and feeling sorry for myself.just needed to get things off my chest and hope to hear other people’s experiences on how to deal with it all

Thank you to all you lovely ladies, I feel so much better about things after reading all your messages of support and your stories and experiences.i can look at things without as much fear after reading all your messages and for that I am truly grateful.i am so happy to have found this wonderful support network and know that there is someone there to talk to when I am feeling scared or down and that there are other people who have felt exactly as I have.Much love to you all and I look forward to getting to know you all xx

@Caroline71 This time after diagnosis but before heading into treatment is really really hard. I spent that time veering from fog to absolute despair. Somehow, once you start treatment, the anxiety while not going away, does tend to calm a bit for most people. I'm guessing that you know who you have been referred to - give them a call and find out your appointment time - the staff should be used to people who are anxious.It sounds to me that you have a lot of trauma to deal with having this come so soon after your father's sudden death. Do you have a psychologist/counsellor? If not, I would suggest that you try to get in to see someone who deals with cancer patients & families. You can get a mental health care plan from your GP to offset some of the costs. And I know at the moment that probably seems too much to even contemplate but talk to your GP or oncologist - they often know of someone who they can recommend.The thought of leaving our kids is an awful one. It has been my shadow throughout and I don't know if it ever goes away. On the other hand, my kids have been amazing since my diagnosis 18 months ago. They still drive me to distraction at times and it certainly has affected them but they have really risen to the occasion when needed. As the others have said - come here when you need information, want to vent or even have a laugh. We get it.

Hi there @Caroline71, welcome to the group that nobody joins voluntarily. Anyone who is not knocked for a six upon learning that they have cancer, would be a rare bird indeed. All of us here, young and not so young. Single and partnered, with and without kids, male and female, "get" it. When I was given a list of things to get before chemo, the first thing I purchased was a plastic bucket from Kmart for the anticipated puking. Well that bucket remains unused for the purpose and now lives a peaceful life as a laundry bucket. Never even had the collywobbles, let alone full on vomiting. Plenty of other stuff happened, but not that. I was diagnosed Grade 3 Stage 3 Triple Positive in 2016. Had AC chemo X 4 doses followed by Paclitaxol X 12 and Herceptin for a year. This was followed by bilateral mastectomy after chemo finished. Currently NED (no evidence of disease). Nothing else to add to the above posts from other members. Sending a big (((cyber hug))). Ally.

hi Caroline71 it is normal to be scared and upset when we are first diagnosed. there are many great ladies and gents on this forum who will answer questions and guide you as you go through this process. Dont do Dr google he can be deceiving. Ask questions here, have a vent and know we get it... as you go through the process and have a plan things will start to settle a bit. Hugs Soldiercrab

@Caroline71 It's always scary the thought of chemo. But so many of us are here and got through it and mostly without major issues.It's normal to feel scared and worry that all things are bc related. They may not be. I know saying that won't help as until you know for sure you will worry. We get it. We've been there.I too had a clear mammogram 5 weeks before I found a lump which in my case was close to the nipple. It would have been much larger before being found in a different location. As to your oncologist. ..if you haven't heard from them by Thursday morning I'd be following up.We are here for any questions you have. No question is silly. Remember that. XPlease let ys know how things go.

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Giovanna_BCNA
Member
6 years ago
Hello @Caroline71 sending you a private message
SoldierCrab
Member
6 years ago
hi Caroline71 it is normal to be scared and upset when we are first diagnosed.
there are many great ladies and gents on this forum who will answer questions and guide you as you go through this process.

Dont do Dr google he can be deceiving.

Ask questions here, have a vent and know we get it...

as you go through the process and have a plan things will start to settle a bit.

Hugs
Soldiercrab
primek
Member
6 years ago
@Caroline71

It's always scary the thought of chemo. But so many of us are here and got through it and mostly without major issues.
It's normal to feel scared and worry that all things are bc related. They may not be. I know saying that won't help as until you know for sure you will worry. We get it. We've been there.
I too had a clear mammogram 5 weeks before I found a lump which in my case was close to the nipple. It would have been much larger before being found in a different location.
As to your oncologist. ..if you haven't heard from them by Thursday morning I'd be following up.
We are here for any questions you have. No question is silly. Remember that. X
Please let ys know how things go.
Sister
Member
6 years ago
@Caroline71 This time after diagnosis but before heading into treatment is really really hard. I spent that time veering from fog to absolute despair. Somehow, once you start treatment, the anxiety while not going away, does tend to calm a bit for most people. I'm guessing that you know who you have been referred to - give them a call and find out your appointment time - the staff should be used to people who are anxious.

It sounds to me that you have a lot of trauma to deal with having this come so soon after your father's sudden death. Do you have a psychologist/counsellor? If not, I would suggest that you try to get in to see someone who deals with cancer patients & families. You can get a mental health care plan from your GP to offset some of the costs. And I know at the moment that probably seems too much to even contemplate but talk to your GP or oncologist - they often know of someone who they can recommend.

The thought of leaving our kids is an awful one. It has been my shadow throughout and I don't know if it ever goes away. On the other hand, my kids have been amazing since my diagnosis 18 months ago. They still drive me to distraction at times and it certainly has affected them but they have really risen to the occasion when needed.

As the others have said - come here when you need information, want to vent or even have a laugh. We get it.
jennyss
Member
6 years ago
Dear @Caroline71, I can't add to the great words from our network members above, but just want to say that I, and I'm sure many other network members, are thinking of you and sending hugs and best wishes. Please keep in touch
Caroline71
Member
6 years ago
Thank you Jennyss x
Blossom1961
Member
6 years ago
@Caroline71 I cannot add to the above great advice. I walked around on auto pilot for the first two weeks and can’t really remember much. I surprisingly just did as I was told. All the best lovely lady. We are here for you. Big hugs. xxx
Di1965
Member
6 years ago
This site is amazing. I can feel the love and support. Caroline71 you are not alone. All these wonderful services we have in Australia. You will be loved and supported xxxxxx
Caroline71
Member
6 years ago
Thank you so much Blossom1961 xx
it is just the worst feeling, like your life I see over
arpie
Member
6 years ago
So sorry to hear of your diagnosis @Caroline71 - it is such a shock - my lump was also found 4 months after an 'all clear' mammogram - I was diagnosed in Jan 18.

Some great advice has been given from those above - take lots of deep breaths, and try to keep yourself as busy as you can doing things you love as you head towards surgery/treatment. After the surgery & you get your pathology results, your medical team will give you a clear 'plan of attack' - and it somehow becomes a bit easier then.

Try not to overthink it as your brain just goes into overdrive! Being upset and angry and fearful for the future is all a part of it, I am afraid. Let the tears fall - it can be quite cathartic.

Do you have a close friend to attend your appointments with you? Two sets of ears are always better than one - plus the physical & emotional support and being driven there & back. I also recorded most of my appts, so I could go back afterwards to listen again, as it can be difficult taking it all in at the time.

Write down any questions you have to put to the Medical Team

Whereabouts are you (state/city/town?) Members may well know of specific services available to you there.

You are not alone in this - we've all been there & know exactly what you are going thru. Put up any questions that you may have & you'll get an honest answer here.

Take care, we are all thinking of you & all the best for your scans xx