Call me CRANKY PANTS... a massive rant

That rant hit so many chords with me, and I can sympathise with you regarding the things people say.

As people on the cancer journey, we have all at some stage been "normal" people. That is why I remember myself making many of the those same comments to people I have known over the years who have been struck by this insidious disease. I cringe when I think of myself (as much trying to cover my own embarrassment as compliment my friend) dumbly saying over and over "you look fantastic, you really look fantastic", and congratulating myself on the fact that I had made her feel better because she was smiling back at me. I now know that there was a much bigger story going on behind that patient smile.

So now as someone going through this (I had my final AC chemo today and will be starting weekly chemo in three weeks time) I remember back to when I was "normal", blissfully unaware of the real story behind the scarves and the turbans, and I try to cut them a little slack, and hope that for them they will never have to know what we know, feel what we feel, make decisions that will never seem "right", or save tears for a safe private place in order to protect loved ones.

That's on my good days anyway. On the other days I just think "shutup arsehole what would you know"

I read your rant and I felt it all. I truly hope your journey is as smooth and trouble free from now on as it is possible to be. I am sure you are in the thoughts of the many people who read these blogs, and you are in my thoughts as well.

Jane