Hi Sarah,I am 59 and live in Sydney.You have come to the best place for support and advice,and there is always someone on here,even at 4 am as you will find out;)I have just finished my chemo( 5 weeks ago) but when I was first diagnosed,I was scared witless.My husband was overseas,and my daughter put her mattress on the floor in my room,as I hated the nights too.I am sure that you will find,that as you go along,and begin to get a plan for your treatment,you will start to feel more in control.Other ladies will come on here to reassure you also,and you will begin to see just how helpful this network of fantastic ladies is,in the BC journey.Try if you can to just take things one day at a time.It is so easy to get ahead of yourself,and usually it is of no help.Like I said,come on here any time you feel like a chat or advice,and there will always be someone here for you.Take care Sarah.xoxox Robyn