I was miserable on taxol...absolutely miserable. I had terrible leg pain and was exhausted. It would take me hours to dress...I was just getting fatter and fatter...and trying to find a scarf that co-ordinated ...uuugh. i wouldn't go out without makeup as I didn't want people assuming I must be dying. ..then of course hated that they tell me how fantastic I looked. I had lots of tears. I was miserable. I honestly think part of it was just the chemo. A few weeks after taxol finished I just suddenly felt normal again and could think positive thoughts.
Please utilise your breast care nurse to talk to. Most oncology units have a cancer counsellor attached to the unit...but if not contact the cancer council and they will put you in touch with someone to help you through.
http://www.cancer.org.au/about-cancer/patient-support/131120.html5 more to go. Almost there. Take the darn pain killers. Cry when you need. Rest when you need. But eat and hydrate as your body needs this to recover.
As to your boyfriend. ..well honey...he isn't the one for you. Better you found that out now.
We are here for you when you need.
Kath x