Hey Bowie, Ive been following your post as to where you are at, it absolutely is difficult beyond belief and I find the worst part of it is FEAR itself. Once you have more information and know what your diagnosis is and treatment moving forward you will feel more settled believe it or not strangely as you will have some control. Traces in the lymph nodes absolutely does not mean it has traveled anywhere else. I had a recurrence at the 4yr mark in 2015 and it was only because of that they took nodes which were clear but I had to have full body scans to look for traces anywhere else, thankfully there were none. I know its so damn hard, but tackle one thing at a time try and stay in the present as you go. x Hugs Melinda