Big huggs Bowie ..lots of support to follow from bcna and this wonderful caring sharing community.
For me i chose to have a mastectomy with no recon.and recovery was excellent
I hope that you have a family member or friend with you when you have the scans.
A possible metastatic diagnosis is so difficult to get your head around so tthe next few days keep super busy to stop the thoughts...i did lots of gardening and cleaning! Loud music too.
You are a strong resilient person .....lots of big deep breaths ..be kind to yourself
All the best for next week