One day at a time. Thats how to survive. One step at a time. Coming to terms with what has to be is hard. It is the only way forward. If you have support great. If you do not have support then the health team ,surgeon ,breast care nurses etc will be with you every step of the way.I think this disease is so difficult to understand.You have done nothing to deserve this it just is..I know you have a hard road ahead. You will make it your way. I found concentrating on packing my bag for hospital,clearing fridge . Stocking the pantry and freezer helped knowing I would be out of action. My husband did a large shop with a list. Its tough .MY cancer also went into the lymph nodes. .A year of treatment means I am now cancer free. I look forward to reading your post many months down the track. Time heals and you begin a new normal.