Christina - I am so sorry for your diagnosis. Welcome to the forum - please feel free to ask questions, vent, laugh, cry etc. I have found it very helpful.
This bc battle can be so difficult to negotiate at times.
There is never a good time for a diagnosis such as this however being so close to the festive season when there seems to be plenty of goodwill and sentiment aplenty, the joys of Christmas simply do not resonate.
I totally understand that you just want to be rid of your cancer - move on from this and get to the next stage of your life and look to 2017.
My very best wishes to you for your surgery today.
Sending hugs & light to you xxx