Not quite the right time for me.
Hey everyone, pretty down today, lasted only 32 hours without smoking. I seriously thought i could do it, but i was climbing the walls and finally succumbed. So disappointed. Should have got some patches or something, not sure if they will affect my chemo next week. Will ask oncologist. Cold turkey seemed like a good idea, but anxiety attack followed last night. After seeing the condition i was in, my partner (non smoker), suggested cutting down and getting something to aid me, he commented I have enough on my plate at the moment without setting myself these other goals. My GP doesn't like the products that are out there, he always says to just stop it! Anyhow, i still want to give up, i will come up with another plan. 2 more sleeps till chemo begins. Going to lunch today with girlfriends, most of whom will question me about puffy eyes. I am questioning whether it was a valiant effort or a dismal failure.:(