Not coping well

Thank you so much for all your kind words, information and even the bluntness. All helpful and welcome. I was so busy with my job and my daughter turning 7 a few days before my op that I didn’t have time to think much about it let alone do any research. I blindly trusted my surgeons. I’m regretting it all now and feel if I’d had the time (I was given 6 weeks from diagnosis to surgery) I would have chosen differently but I was told I would look better… yea that’s what the surgeon said… and although I wasn’t too thrilled with the idea of fake breasts the idea of going slightly bigger made me feel like I could live with and maybe even embrace the new me. What I’ve been left with is shocking and I had no idea this was even possible. I’m really hoping I find someone else here who’s had something similar happen and can reassure me I will eventually look ok. Currently I cry every time I see it so I’m not doing the three massages a day..  starting to dread showers and feel physically ill when I see my chest. I’m seeing a third  surgeon late October and and  hoping for some good news…